Finding My Way Back to My Dreams

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It's a question that has been haunting me lately: Are emotions real, or are they just a facade we put on for the world? It's a tough one to answer because, despite my best efforts, understanding why people act the way they do remains an enigma.

I always believed I was different, and maybe I am. But I've also been told, "Be like everyone else." Why? Why should I conform to society's expectations? Should I chase my dreams or succumb to the pressure of doing what's expected?

As I write this, I'm not doing anything I'm "supposed" to be doing. It makes me wonder why I scored 96 percent in my 12th class or why I'm pursuing a Bcom Hons degree. Why am I preparing for an entrance exam I have no interest in? Why do I have to prove my worthiness before pursuing my dreams?

The internal struggle is real. Some nights, I cry, feeling incapable of anything. Other nights, I'm on top of the world, striving to meet the expectations my parents have set for me. But what about me, the kid who once dreamed of pursuing literature, teaching, and becoming a writer?

It's complicated when you come from a middle-class family with aspirations that sometimes feel out of reach. I don't blame my parents or those who've supported me. They have their reasons, but I can't help but question why.

I find solace in talking to my best friend for hours. He may or may not provide peace or comfort, but he's always brutally honest. I've learned from him and my older brother that being true to yourself is crucial.

My friend made me laugh even after a painful breakup and helped me heal. My brother taught me the importance of preserving my dignity.

What's striking is that I didn't learn these vital lessons from my parents. In the end, I remember the people who stood by me when I was at my lowest, not those who couldn't uplift me.

This journey is far from easy. Honesty is a demanding task, and sometimes, my own mind seems to work against me. But amidst all the chaos, my ultimate dream remains: finding inner happiness.

In this world of uncertainties, I'm navigating my way back to the dreams I once held dear.

The picture is of my best friend Ehsaas.