Trying everything

April 18, 2022

Trying everything

Hi guys. Have you been well?? It's been more than ten days since I wrote something and I don't feel sorry for that. To be honest I was giving myself some personal time. And what meaning does this personal time holds for me?

During these ten days, I did many things, tried new things, met new people, made some good friends, and figured out my feelings toward someone.

First I thought of telling you all a summary of the ten days I didn't write but that will be too long and boring. So I will be telling you about a few interesting events which were somewhat tiring but pretty much out of ordinary.

So the most recent one was when I took the wrong bus to my destination and landed 15kms away from it.

What actually happened was that we were going back home from college so every day we take different buses home but that day we took the same bus because we thought that it will take us to our destinations and technically it did but only to one of us which was 15 km away from mine.

And If you ask why didn't we drop in between well we were having fun going with the flow. That day was seriously fun, I made a new friend that day and she taught me a new thing that day it was not bad for a first experience.

Moving forward with our lost trip we reached the stop where she was meant to drop we also step out of the bus with her. There we sat for like 10 min and started searching for bus routes and buses to our home. We found that we have to change two buses and walk 1.5 km. At the bus stop no bus was stopping so we have to run towards the traffic light where buses had no choice but to stop. There we found one bus to our home and in between all of this we drank 3L of water in 15 minutes because the heat was over the top.

Usually, it takes us it takes 10 minutes to reach our home from college via bus but on that day it took us 1.5 hours. Hectic you might say. But it was fun. When I talked about this to my father he laughed and said this is a great experience for me. And it was. hehe.

Well, there was this incident, my mother called me and asked me why was I writing this blog and told me that I was wasting my time doing this shit. She told me to study rather than focus my attention and time on this. Then I told her that it is related to my General Elective subject.

Now her way of talking changed she started appreciating me for this. And I was not shocked by this ( typical Indian mother nature nothing else ). haha. I love her more than anything in this world. ( typical Indian son nature )

The next incident is much funnier. In an earlier post, I told you all that I made an online friend at 3am so I met her in college she is beautiful, open-minded, cute and a very interesting person. And after meeting her the next day she told me that I am a shy guy like seriously this was the first time in my whole life that someone told me that I am a shy guy well most of the time I only hear "Besharam" and that's true. I am tired of bottling up my feelings inside myself and yes I speak less but I don't shut my feelings. Well, it was pretty great meeting with her and establishing a friendship that may last for an indefinite time.

Once I went to the college wearing Kurta pajamas and entered my class 40 min late and it was a whole different feeling like a royal entering his court. And from that day, it has become somewhat of a habit to enter late in class. It's thrilling and I know there are many things that I will find thrilling in college. But I need to stay away from them like smoking, alcohol, hookah, drugs, and every unhealthy thing. Well, I am not a saint but I try to hide from you.

Pringles are tasty but they are overpriced.

Beer is not tasty and it is overrated.

Whiskey is tasty and it is ok but under adequate consumption.

Smoking is only good if your teacher is experienced otherwise it might be a hell of an experience.

Yogurt is only good if it's sweet.

You should not inhale smoke with your tongue suspended in the air in your mouth while drinking hookah it is dangerous and addictive.

Girls hate being called mam, madam, didi, and miss.

You will be called shy if you speak less. :)

I like talking to people but not every time.

Sometimes I love talking to random people and sometimes I would be silent with people I love. This is me. And this is my personality. This has now somewhat of a double personality for me. The way of talking, posture, and mood differs. When talking to a stranger the only thing I have in my mind is to make a good impression. When I am with my friends everything good about me withers away which is a very pleasant feeling at least I can be real with them. I can be mean to them and still hear them laughing. I can be silent with them and still they would properly understand me. And that's what I love about them. Well, I may be overexaggerating and this might be one-sided but that's what makes them special.

Well, this post ended up with me talking about myself but what can we do I love myself and I am pretty much confident in myself that I don't care what others think of me. Hehe.

People hate the idea of changing themselves in simple words, they are scared of changing themselves for the better which is a very tough task but an important one. We are not perfect and we will never be perfect but we all are trying to come closer to what we can call perfect. We can never be right but we can be less wrong. This might sound like some random bullshit but I will try to come up with some practical examples which might give you a better understanding of the above example. I don't have any right now and I know I am looking like an idiot now but that's okay. It's okay to be stupid.

I met Sutiya today wish we could talk more but it's okay.

I do think about the sandwich girl every day but it's decreasing day by day and I don't know if it's for the better but let's go with the flow. At least it will hurt less than the last time. :)

Downloaded some great songs during this short break and I guess some of you might have listened to these so you can skip to the next para.

1. Rait Zara Si [slowed+reverb] by Arijit Singh

2. Pasoori - Ali Sethi x Shae Gill

3. To My Youth

4. First Love/Late Spring

5. Grows Old - Thirdstory

6. Something In Your Eyes - Gang Haein

7. Jalpari - Hanita Bhambri

8. Nazukh - Hanita Bhambri

9. New Invention - I Don't Know How But They Found Me

10. Choke - I Don't Know How But They Found Me

Most of these songs were suggested by a person I can relate to on another level.